I just started reading a book written by Pat Layton called “A Surrendered Life“. This is a book about finding healing, freedom and hope from the heartbreak of abortion. She also wrote the bible study we use in our healing groups called “Surrendering the Secret”.
I have heard her speak. She has an amazing testimony. It will make you cry, laugh, and rejoice with her.
In her book she states that every one of us has been affected by abortion. Because 43% of all women have had at least 1 abortion, that equates to 1 out of 3 women. If I take just my abortion. It affects me, my sister, my parents, my grandparents, my aunts, uncles, my nieces, nephew, my friends. It ripples out from there. There is no where you can go to escape being affected by abortion.
Her book is another example of the importance of sharing our stories with each other. I think of all the women that have been helped because Pat Layton was willing to open herself up and many other men and women like her. It is this courage that urges me on. When I want to be silent, I think about others who have gone before me and instead of shrinking back into the shadows I stand firm.
Be on the alert, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong. Let all that you do be done in love. 1 Corinthians 16:13-14 (NASB)
I was thinking the other day and it struck me. I don’t think I have written about women who have had multiple abortions.
From some of the groups I have led, there have been plenty of women that have had multiple abortions. I have seen the shame and heartache on their faces. I have heard the despair in their voices when they tell us that they were only going to admit to the one abortion and keep the 2nd or 3rd a secret. They tell me that they feel lower than a woman who has had only one abortion.
This is simply not true!
Luckily one of our leaders has had multiple abortions and also a lady on the video we watch shares her experience and that allows these women to open up and speak about it. It is part of them and their story and as equally important in their healing.
There is hope and forgiveness. It is the same for you as it was for me. I speak about my experience that happens to only include one abortion. It is a miracle that is all I had. I was by no means responsible and could have easily put myself in a situation where I would have to make that choice again.
We might look different, but we are the same.
I was once afraid. My secret held tight in the depths of my soul. I felt defined by it. Everything I did or didn’t do seemed to wrap around the one choice I made in my life when I was eighteen.
But then I found freedom. Freedom in healing. Freedom in the shadow of the wings God promised to shelter me with. Freedom in sharing this secret.
I have learned though that there are still others who fear. Others that don’t want to be involved in such a “political” issue. I see it less as a political issue and more like a human issue.
I shout out my life, my experience, my emotions. I shout out what God has done for me. Others seek the darkness and shadows out of fear. I continue to seek the light. Because in the light I don’t have to hide or pretend. In the light I am free to live. In the light God’s grace is real and far reaching.
In the light I will continue to stomp fear.