When I am drowning in my sorrows and filled with the muck that ones life can bring I am reminded about the forgiveness in which I believe in. This morning this song came on and I love the words and the meaning. You can go east forever without going west and west forever without going east. THAT is how far my sins, shortcomings, regret, pain, guilt, shame, and everything else has been cast from me.
Psalm 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
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One of the things we use at our memorial service is this verse.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
When I was reading Mark Hall’s book, “Your Own Jesus”, Mark tells the story how a teacher explained this verse to him and it stuck with him. Once I heard this I knew I wanted to use it in our memorial service.
This is how he described it:
“There is a reason God used east to west to describe how far he cast your sin from you. If you go north, you can only go north so far until you’re finally going south. And you can only go south so far until your going north. But if you start traveling east, it keeps going east forever, and west just keeps going west. If you think about it, you’re never going to go so far west that you’re going east. That is how far he cast our sin from us.”
What did that mean to me? I know all sin is equal in the eyes of God, but abortion in some respects felt like the ultimate SIN. I know it isn’t. But when you hold on to this dark secret for years it begins to take over. You know your forgiven for that lie and maybe yelling at your mom that one time. But is it possible to be forgiven for taking the life of my child? Even if it’s possible to be forgiven, can I forgive myself?
But I didn’t need to forgive myself, but accept the forgiveness God already had given me. I inform, speak, and share my story because I want people to know from the depths I was lifted up. I want other women to experience the freedom I have. It hasn’t been an easy journey at times, but I am not going back.
The truth keeps me free.
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