I just started reading a book written by Pat Layton called “A Surrendered Life“. This is a book about finding healing, freedom and hope from the heartbreak of abortion. She also wrote the bible study we use in our healing groups called “Surrendering the Secret”.
I have heard her speak. She has an amazing testimony. It will make you cry, laugh, and rejoice with her.
In her book she states that every one of us has been affected by abortion. Because 43% of all women have had at least 1 abortion, that equates to 1 out of 3 women. If I take just my abortion. It affects me, my sister, my parents, my grandparents, my aunts, uncles, my nieces, nephew, my friends. It ripples out from there. There is no where you can go to escape being affected by abortion.
Her book is another example of the importance of sharing our stories with each other. I think of all the women that have been helped because Pat Layton was willing to open herself up and many other men and women like her. It is this courage that urges me on. When I want to be silent, I think about others who have gone before me and instead of shrinking back into the shadows I stand firm.
Be on the alert, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong. Let all that you do be done in love. 1 Corinthians 16:13-14 (NASB)
We are preparing for another abortion healing group to begin. Whenever we start a new group there are many feelings that follow. Even though I have a few under my belt…I still doubt my abilities. But then I look back to the beginning and I see how far I have come.
We are all at different parts of our journey in life. We all have different goals, lives, hopes, dreams. I can say that without a doubt this is the journey that God has laid before me. This is the road I am meant to travel.
One of my favorite verses…
|Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1-2
I want to run the race that has been set before me. I want not to grow faint or weary, but do all of this for the glory of God. If I can allow God to work through me then I have nothing to fear. I don’t have to bear a giant “A” on my soul. No longer does that have power over me. But God has given me power over it.
So in the end, that is what I am fighting for. Freedom. Freedom for these women that are going to come to the group the first day not knowing the journey that lies before them. But they are powerful for just taking that first step in their healing. They are courageous for trusting someone else with that secret that they held on to. When I look at them, I see me.