It has been close to six months since I started this blog. Being the perfectionist that I am, I didn’t even know if I would make it past the first entry, let alone the subsequent entries. But somehow, despite my editing, constant critiquing, and over analyzing, (even now I am trying to decide which of these three words should go first, second, and third. Really?) I have made it close to 70 posts.
It really started out as a way to discipline myself as a writer, break my silence and share my story, but it has turned into a bit more than I thought. I have enjoyed reading what others have been writing, doing, learning. In some ways it has given me further insight into my own struggles, even just knowing that I am not alone in this fight.
OK it sounds like I am leaving or dying…neither of which are true. I really just wanted to say thank-you. You all have encouraged me, pushed me on, and pulled me through (apparently I must write in groups of three). My wings were once delicate like a dragon fly and I feared they might tear and I would plummet to the ground. They are still delicate, but instead of fear, I am enjoying the journey and the view isn’t too bad either. 
In April, when my life turned upside down, and I didn’t know how to begin to work through what I was feeling, I asked Edward if maybe I should write again. And he was nervous about it. I think a little worried for him and really concerned for me that there would be backlash for me since abortion is such a heated issue. It was a simple search that brought me to your blog and reading it and your honesty and struggle and not seeing vehement hurtful polarizing comments was the one thing that made it okay for me to write. And it has been such a help for me. So thank YOU!
C.
(p.s. dragonflies, though in some ways delicate, are unparalleled fliers, and voracious predators – sometimes those things are helpful to channel, too
Thanks! I am so glad you did (start writing again). I have enjoyed reading your blog, and though it’s hard and it hurts, it resonates within me because I know I have either been there or felt that. I had to literally laugh out loud on the dragonfly thing, love that! Yes I can be like that too for sure!
Hi Rebekah, it’s been 6 months for me too. Keep up the good writing, Graeme
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